Showing posts with label Berber. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Berber. Show all posts

Saturday, April 5, 2008

A Tribute to Nacer




Death is inevitable for every human being because “to God we belong and to Him is our return” said the Holy Koran. However, Nacer Amezian’s passing away affected me a lot. The terrible news of his death shocked and deeply saddened me and added to my homesickness in this ‘cold’ part of the world – Ohio, US. His death came at a time I hadn’t gotten over the shock of the loss of another Moroccan close friend yet – Lahcen Laabid, God bless his soul.
I met Nacer for the first time in Boston College in August, 2004. We were there to attend an educational program sponsored by the University of the Middle East (UME). He was the only Algerian in the group and he felt at home with us the Moroccans though he got on well with everyone else. My relationship with him grew up very quickly because we had many things in common that helped us do so, especially language. We spoke Berber, French, and English but we usually used Berber.
Nacer believed in the power of friendship and he was the only one from the twenty four members of the group who stayed in touch with me on a regular basis. We emailed each other and we phoned one another. I liked reading his emails because they were always peppered with that good humor he never lost.
Nacer was such a good friend and often wished the Moroccan-Algerian borders would open so that he could visit me with his family in my hometown.
He was such a loving and faithful husband and often told me that his wife was the center of his life. He was such an affectionate and devoted father who did everything for his children and whose eyes welled up with tears whenever he talked about them in Boston. I still remember how sad he felt one day in August, 2004 because one of his daughters celebrated her birthday in his absence. I learned the names of his three daughters because he kept talking about them all the time. His boy was still not born at that time. He emailed me and told me the good news when Yassine was born.
Nacer liked fun and enjoyed life. He liked to listen to Berber music. It was in his blood. I recall that day when we were about to leave an American bookstore and that Algerian Berber musical dance came on the radio. He refused to leave the bookstore until the song was over. He even danced for a few seconds there.
My heart is broken because I lost a good friend, a real friend, but “Every soul must taste death.”
My thoughts and prayers go out to his wife, his three daughters and his son. My sincere condolences go to his many friends and all those who knew and loved him.
Rest in peace Nacer you will be missed and remembered.
Noureddine

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Homesick



“A man may live in many places and still not call them home.”(Harold Robbins, Stiletto)

Dearest family,
Today is february19 and it’s 21:31. I am in my room now at the University Inn, Kent. It’s windy, snowy and cold outside and I am by my own. The TV behind me is harping on about Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama’s war of words in American primary elections.
I am unmindful to that because it’s the same thing all day long and because I miss you back home in Morocco. It has dawned on me that "East or west, home is best". It has only been almost a month and a half but I can’t stand it anymore and I miss you.
I miss you my family terribly. I miss you my wife because you have been special to me since the moment I met you. This is the first time that we've been apart for so long since we've been married. Now I discover that we cannot live without each other and that we always took each other for granted before. We have been through so much. We had our ups and downs, highs and lows, joys and sorrows like everybody else but we've always brought our differences to a happy ending.
I miss you my daughters because you are the greatest kids on earth and no daughters have ever been loved, cherished and wanted more than you have. I miss getting up in the middle of every night to put you back to bed and cover you again. I miss reading to you and listening to your jokes and your school stories. I miss your fights with each other, your complaints about your Mom not letting you go out to play with your friends in the street.
My friend Lahcen, God bless his soul, once told me that it would be selfish of him to leave his wife and daughters for more than a month. Now I understand the deep meaning of his wise words.
Though I am always in touch with you, dearest family, by sending you emails, by IMing you, by calling you almost everyday, I still miss you. None of these can be a supplement to the face to face family reunion. None of these can heal my homesickness.
None of these can compensate for your love, your hugs, your smiles, your warmth, and collective family life.
Because I miss you I find it hard to get uninterrupted nights’ sleep and I find it hard to concentrate on my work …
Because I am homesick I lack motivation and I feel isolated and lost.
I wash, I eat, I pray, I go shopping, same as I do back home but I am not back home and I miss home.
I miss my friends, the shopkeepers, the artisans, the beggars, the shoe-shines, the street vendors, the road sweepers…I miss my colleagues at school, my students (those who email me and those who don’t), my supervisor who keeps me updated with news and funny stuff from home by email on all but regular basis.
I miss hanging around with friends and watching soccer together in cafés, sipping coffee and swearing at the players and coaches and calling them names at times and praising them other times. I miss reading Almassae -my favorite newspaper- at Patio cafe every day before going to work.
I miss Friday family gatherings over Moroccan Couscous after prayers. I miss green tea with mint, I miss Harira, I miss Tagine, I miss Kefta in Kamuni village every other Sunday, I miss all the Halal food.
I miss driving on the winding roads to my parents’ in the country during our many national holidays while listening to Berber songs on my CD player. I miss the hills there, the forest, and the sheep and goats crossing the road in front of my car.
I miss everyone and everything back home except our politicians's policy because that's what pulls us backwards.